A few weeks ago I went to lunch with my husband
and found myself gazing at this precious little family. There was mommy,
daddy, what looked like a 2 year old baby girl, and a newborn. The mom was on
her iPhone while the dad was holding the toddler. I couldn’t help but feel like
this mama missed such a special moment between this daddy and daughter.
Maybe baby girl did this often but to this “baby
less” mama I pray daily I get to witness such a special moment between my hubby
and baby girl someday. Baby girl was sitting on daddy’s lap giving him eskemo
kisses as she squeezed his cheeks with her chubby baby hands and kissed his
mouth. She whispered in that sweet soft baby voice, “lubb you dada.” (As I can
only imagine they’ve done to her many times) And yes, I was the creep watching
in awe at such a beautiful moment as tears welled in my eyes.
Via Counting Graces
After,
I was looking dazed out the window watching the snow fall. My husband knew just
what to say then because he squeezed my hand and said, “Our turns coming baby.”
I
knew then it wasn’t just my husband reassuring me, it was God too.
You
see, when I was a little girl I would wait by the window watching for the first
snowfall of the year. The snow always felt like my little present. It was magic
to me, still is magic to me. Only now I really see God’s hand in it all.
After
I had Lylah the next day when we got home from the hospital it began snowing
for the first time this winter. My baby girl sent me a present to reassure me
she was with God.
A
little over a month later I was struggling. I was having a rough day dealing
with my loss. I missed my baby bump, I missed her nursery now empty, I missed
what could have been, and more than anything else I missed her! And then out of
nowhere we had a huge storm. Snow that trapped us in for three days. A storm
that said it’s alright mama. Don’t be sad for me. I can picture my baby girl
sitting on God’s lap watching over us and the snow just smiling.
The
snow will always remind me of my Lylah Grace. It’ll always remind me of God’s
hand in it all. It’ll remind me of the journey. My story. Why I’m here. And even
more to be present. To find the joy again, and enjoy my present.
In
honor of Sadie Sky Boutique and Words About Waverly’s link up “It’s the little
things” I hope y’all will remember to slow down and be present.
Your story moved me SO much. Thank you, thank you for sharing and for linking up with Ashley and I! Would you mind if I linked back to this post on Wednesday for th next "it's the little things?" It's something that I think everyone should read! I'm so happy to have found your blog...it's such a gift! I'm now following along and looking forward to getting to "know" you a bit more through your posts. I hope that you'll continue linking up with us for "it's the little things!" email me anytime at: jess@sadieskyboutique.com
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Thank you, I'm so glad you read it. Of course not, I'd be honored if you linked back to mine :) Thank you!! The more I can get my story out there, the more I can help.. I hope anyway! I'm so glad to have you following and I adore your blog. I'm working on a post for tomorrow already!
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So glad that Jess linked back to your beautiful post. Truly inspiring and beautiful. Thank you for your vulnerability and honesty in this post. And praise God for those little moments of true grace. This was wonderful.
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ReplyDeleteIt takes a lot of courage to tell hard stories to even a screen when you know it will be "out there". So glad you did. I do my very best to enjoy those little moments, but there can never be too many reminders, and your story is certainly a powerful one. Will pray for you today.
Thanks Jamie for your sweet words, and I'm glad you stopped by :) That means a lot to me, thank you!
DeleteYour story moved me in such a way. So many times we fail at being present and we don't even realize it. I pray that The Lord continue to bring peace and comfort to your lives.
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Thank you so much.
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